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May 27, 2010
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May 25, 2010
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May 20, 2010
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May 12, 2010
reflections
What a great show. i felt that it sounded pretty good on my end. Attempting to set up my gear in the very dim light was a pain and resulted in things being set way different from what i usually do. I had my twin up louder then I wanted, and the volume on the space echo way too high which resulted in some pretty heavy feedback. I managed to keep it in control and work with it, but I had thought some of the noise was one of the amps of the next band being driven to hard. Walking over to that amp mid set I realized there was no sound coming from that amp and stopped worrying that I was destroying it. (that was the other consequence of setting up in the dark, grabbed the wrong end of the cable and sent right channel of laptop into his guitar..not his amp..doh!)
Again, trying to use bebot on my ipod in a live setting proved difficult. I got some sounds out of it, but not what i really wanted. I made it work but still feel that I do better with that thing in practice.
I liked having a set time and I think I used it pretty well. I will probably continue to start with a short 5 minute piece to get my bearings and well its kinda neat to get applause.
I made a post like 4 years ago and in it I mention this almost euphoria about playing in front of ppl. I think it stems from pushing my brain to really be instantly creative combined with the pressure of delivering something worthy of the ppl standing in the audience. Thus my sampling and mixing live is very “first thought best though” because i dont want to waste time. the set is only so long and the music already challenging enough that I dont want ppl watching me think about what I want to do next. At my last show at the hotti biscotti (which i didnt write about afterward, but I should have) i felt like the piece got away from me. last night even during a section of just loud noise that I didnt know where is was coming from I figured out how to reign it in and work with it. this didnt go unnoticed as a number of ppl afterward commented about that section only asking if it was accidental because of my walking about during it look at amps.
this was prob the largest amount of ppl I have played infront of and also the largest percentage of ppl I knew in the crowd. Its really great to have friends come out, but I also feel bad. I feel a bit self centered and well the music I make is not going to be very broadly liked. Its not like i am doing a fun rock show where you can hang out and maybe dance or sing or jump or something. It was nice to hear from someone that walked in as I was playing that the whole crowd was silently wrapped in attention. I liked that I couldn’t see anyone or really just like a fuzzy blob of ppl when I looked out. it was both comforting and much needed pressure. The time I played a small art studio in the flat iron building where I could see clearly all the ppl in watching me, and when they started to talk to each other, made for an altogether different experience. at that show i started to get angry at the ppl talking that used that to fuel the piece which afterward I felt bad about.
my friend leigh made buttons, and everybody so far said it sounded good and really liked it. Also the sound guy really like the set and said it was a good soundtrack to the book he was reading “good bye 20th century” about sonic youth (I believe he was currently on the chapter about glen branca) i am thankful for all of that. i feel really great today.
ps..also was told again by a few different ppl that I should have projections that I score. i guess i really need to get on that. maybe i should bug cole 
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May 7, 2010
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